It will make you stronger

My head is spinning with new choreography.

My body aches from hours of dancing.

A voice inside of me screams, You're terrible.  That's awful.  It's horrible.

And then from out of nowhere:

It'll be hard, but it will make you stronger.

And with this strength I can rise to new heights.

It'll be hard, but it will make you stronger.  And God has never gone back on a promise.

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Take Me Deeper

I've been realizing lately that there is SO MUCH MORE that I could be putting into dance.  The harder I work, the harder I can work; the more I see how much I need to put into this to make it beautiful; to make it worthwhile.  It's a cycle of perfection that is fulfilling but also can be draining without God in the middle.

And that's another crazy thing.  The more I pray the more I realize there is SO MUCH MORE that I could be giving to the Lord.  There are crevices and cracks in my heart that I haven't handed over to Him and the Devil takes advantage of that.  I came to God today, and I realized I was scared to give Him everything.  Scared to give Him it all.

And then a song began to play: "Take me deeper where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters wherever you may call me." -Oceans, Hillsong United

So why am I not working my hardest, practicing with every chance I have?  I must give all my energy.  I see that lack in myself when I dance, and I tell myself so.

Why am I not growing in my prayer life with every chance I have?  Why don't I take every opportunity?

Why am I holding back?

Take me deeper where my trust is without borders.  Let me walk upon the waters, wherever you may call me! Yes yes yes yes yes!  Father, I was literally, physically, jumping with joy when this song was played.  Fulfill that joy.  Take me deeper.

Mandy